FOR THOSE HOPING TO LOSE, A HARD LOOK IN THE MIRROR
- 03/23/2013 by Mike Hale (NY Times)

Fat people aren’t very visible on American television, and when they appear, it tends to be in one of a few approved roles: comic props in blue-collar reality series, cautionary figures in exploitative medical shows, huffing and puffing contestants in weight-loss competitions.

Alexandra Lescaze’s documentary “All of Me: A Story of Love, Loss, and Last Resorts,” showing in PBS’s “Independent Lens” series on Monday night, is a welcome exception. Its examination of obesity is serious, intimate and not at all sensationalistic, despite some graphic images of weight-loss surgery and its consequences.

And Ms. Lescaze’s film confounds expectations in other, more significant ways. “All of Me” follows several women in Austin, Tex., who are or have been part of a group of “big beautiful women,” with social lives and in some cases livelihoods tied to their size and the attraction it holds for some men. Now they are having (or saving up for) weight-loss operations, and while they are eager to lose weight, their feelings about it are anything but straightforward.

Friendships and relationships shift and strain as a woman’s size and possibly her outlook on life change. Husbands feel threatened by a wife’s new look, or insecure about their own girth. Conversely, women who were hired as fetish models or courted online and at gatherings of the like-bodied worry that they will lose their desirability along with their pounds.

One of them is asked: “You were a spectacular fat woman. Are you afraid you’ll be less spectacular as a normal woman?”

Then there are the physical effects of surgery, brought home vividly in a scene of a woman trying to eat a burrito after her gastric band has been tightened. “What used to make me happy were things I can’t eat now,” she says.

Ms. Lescaze crams an awful lot of psychology, medicine, cultural history and complex emotion into an hourlong TV documentary, but her biggest challenge is finding a tone that works, one that’s neither too cautionary nor too celebratory and accepting. She settles on a slightly generic note of sober uplift, though there’s no hiding the crushing sadness implicit in at least some of the stories. One 470-pound woman whose insurance won’t pay for weight-loss surgery — and who ekes out her income by posting photos of herself on “fat forums” — says, “If that’s what guys are going to pay to see, then it’s time to go to the circus.”

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All of Me, part of PBS’s “Independent Lens” series, looks at several women in Austin, Tex., who contemplate weight-loss operations. Credit Alexandra Lescaze

 


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